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[jasidian]

I'm going to do this in writing since I'm a sobbing mess at the moment.

Does anyone else have reservations about saying goodbye to their little dragons? I know my boy's probably going to be happier in the temple with the others, but I can't help but feel like I'm giving up on him.

I could say it's just that I don't want to let him go, but... it's more than that, I think.

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[einspine]

I THINK IT MAKES SENSE.

THEY'RE TECHNICALLY OURS. EVEN IF YOU ADOPT THEM OUT TO THEIR OWN KIND, YOU MADE THEM, AND IT MIGHT FEEL A BIT

CRUEL TO LET THEM GO WITHOUT KNOWING THEIR PARENTS

IT'S COMPLICATED. I'M STILL NOT SURE HOW TO FEEL ABOUT IT!!!

[jasidian]

I'm not saying that they're not going to be taken care of well. I have faith they would.

And... I do honestly believe that most of the people here are doing this with good intentions.

But I can't help but feel like my arm is being twisted here when I'd rather it not be. Yes, I agreed to the arrangement like everyone else, but now that he's here I'm having second thought about giving him up.

[einspine]

MAYBE TALK TO THE DRAGON AND SEE IF YOU CAN KEEP HIM?

THE IMPORTANT THING IS THAT THE DRAGONS ARE HERE AT ALL! I THINK IT WOULD BE FINE TO LET SOME LEAVE THE NEST.

[jasidian]

I've never been the persuasive sort, but I'll have to try here.

I was given up at birth myself, and I know my mother had circumstances she couldn't exactly control that led to that but...

Well.

Can you blame me for not wanting to make this a pattern?

[einspine]

[Ah... that's an almost familiar set of circumstances. Not one he's personally endured, however parentless he may be, but Frisk...

The implications weren't hard to pick up on. Never knowing family throughout their entire childhood... This was different, of course, but Papyrus isn't stupid. In fact, he's quite brilliant! After all, he's the great Papyrus! Perception shares... well, a few letters from his name. And that's what counts!]

NO, I CAN'T BLAME YOU. AND I WON'T! IT'S CLEAR YOU HAVE GREAT COMPASSION!!! YOU BROUGHT THIS DRAGON INTO THE WORLD, AND YOU WANT TO STAY BY THEIR SIDE! GUIDE THEM ON THE INCREDIBLE JOURNEY OF LIFE!!!

I THINK YOU SHOULD DO IT! TALK TO THE DRAGON. LET HIM KNOW HOW DEEPLY YOUR HEART YEARNS TO BE THE MOM!

OR THE DAD. OR SOME EQUALLY POIGNANT PARENTAL TERM OF INDETERMINATE GENDER!

[jasidian]

I'm a guy, so. Um. Dad it is.

This little guy has a few sisters back in my own world that he'll regretfully probably never meet. I just want him to have the same level of care that I've given all of them.

[einspine]

ANYONE CAN BE THE MOM IF THEY BELIEVE!!!!

BUT THE DAD IS ALSO AN EQUALLY VALID APPROACH.

BUT WHO KNOWS? PERHAPS ONE DAY THEY CAN MEET! THIS WORLD IS VERY UNPREDICTABLE. AND PERHAPS, ONE DAY, WHEN WE'VE COMPLETED OUR ROLE AS STARFALLEN, YOU CAN TAKE YOUR DRACONIC OFFSPRING TO MEET THEM IN EARNEST!

[jasidian]

...my wife is going to have so many questions if that ever happens.

[einspine]

OH.

I DIDN'T THINK OF THAT.

[Because usually children come from... a mutual partner. Who would not be the wife. Hm.]

WHEN IN DOUBT... BLAME MAGIC? I SUPPOSE YOU HAVE TIME TO CONTEMPLATE THE PERFECT EXPLANATION! AND ALSO GUIDE THIS YOUNG DRAGON ON THE PATH TO BEING A TERRIFIC INDIVIDUAL WHOM SHE COULD BE PROUD OF!

[jasidian]

I mostly just had some rather unusual dreams and woke up to find the egg next to me, so that makes things at least marginally less awkward, I suppose.

We'd be alright.

Probably.

[einspine]

OH.

WOWIE! SO THE ELIXIR ALONE WAS ENOUGH TO BRING YOU THIS BEAUTIFUL BUNDLE OF JOY?

WELL. A VERY LARGE BUNDLE, BY VIRTUE OF BEING A DRAGON. STILL! THAT'S INTERESTING. VERY, VERY INTERESTING.

MORE VARIABLES TO CONSIDER WHILE SOLVING THE PUZZLE THAT IS THE DRAGON JUICE!!!

[jasidian]

I'm not the only one, it seems. There was someone else on these devices who'd had the same experience.

[a_sweet_little_peach]

You know... it doesn't exactly have to be goodbye. That temple thing isn't going anywhere that I can tell, and... for all I know, you could convince them to let you move in, too.

But even that aside, you can visit them often. I sure intend to... they're lovely, and I look forward to seeing them grow.

[jasidian]

I do wonder how much of this is just my knee jerk reaction to...well. Some personal issues.

[tequilasunset]

At least you had them.

Enjoy that you had them.

Deliberately not responding

[jasidian]

[ Klaus...peers at this response, and then begins typing out several replies before deleting them every time.

Mostly because he figures this person might be speaking from some previous trauma, or something, but either way he's not sure if saying anything else will make it better.

In a lot of ways, he's wondering if he might make things worse. ]

[tequilasunset]

[There's a moment of pause as he continues.]

I'm going to tell you a piece of advice that a very kind insect once told to me.

Turn away from ruin. Do it for you. Do it for the working class. The most painful thing there is, is living in a moment that could have been. Find them and have them be there. In front of you. As regularly as you can manage.

[jasidian]

Thank you?

[ He's not sure what else to say. ]

[tequilasunset]

Don't mention it. I'm a regular fountain of barely comprehensible goodish advice.

[jasidian]

I'm still getting used to everyone here since Cecil was the only person I've known before... Well, this place.

Good to know, I suppose.

[boomchucka]

It doesn't have to be goodbye.

It does hurt a bit to have to say goodbye after looking them this month, but I'm sure the Keeper would let you visit the dragon you looked after whenever you wanted.

Why not speak to Austral and see what he says?

[jasidian]

I'm planning on having a word with him later. Maybe I was wrong to get so worked up over this?

[boomchucka]

Maybe?

It's one of those things where everyone reacts differently. Some just need a little time to adjust. Others need a lot of time to adjust.

I haven't seen your handwriting before. Are you a new Starfallen?

[jasidian]

I just got here a few weeks ago, so yes.

[boomchucka]

Oh! Welcome to Concord!

[But let her go back to the topic at hand.]

Did you decide on a name for your dragon? If you're intent on keeping it, you'd might as well give it a good, meaningful name!

[jasidian]

His name is Vrigka.

I thought long and hard about it, and maybe he's not an orc, but I still gave him a proper Orcish name anyway?

[boomchucka]

I've never met an Orc before so it's all new to me on that end! I'm sure that it means something wonderful though.

What does it mean?

[jasidian]

"Swift arrow." Mostly because he's a jumpy little thing; it was what I could think of at the time.

[nobold]

We'll naturally grow close to our children as we spend time with them. To let go of them after only knowing them for a month at most is something most cannot do. You've always been the sentimental sort, Klaus. It's one of your strengths.

Besides, you already have fatherly instincts; I don't think they would accept you leaving any child of yours behind.

[jasidian]

I suppose I should have thought about this eventuality when I agreed to help Austral, but if I'm being honest, I really don't want to entertain any notion that I regret this decision.

[nobold]

I don't think you'd regret the decision at all. It's simply a matter of being unable to keep your child and send them out into the world.

A month can be early for such things by orc standards, but for what it's worth, dragons are better about that. That said, I don't think it would be the last time we'd see them, if we send them off.

[jasidian]

I'm still thinking over the implications of what each of my actions might be, but you know the deal with my mother, Cecil.

I don't think I could ever resent her for making the choices she did, but I'm trying my best to make sure I balance the scales a little.

[nobold]

Aren't you doing that already? By giving them time with their father? It may not be as much time as you'd like, but they know you, they remember your face...

They probably know you'll pray for their well being each and every day. And possibly cry at the same time. You wear your heart on your sleeve, after all.

[jasidian]

I suppose you're right, I just...

He's just so small and there's still so much I want to teach him, you know?

[nobold]

Then perhaps you can get him his own Liber Nuntiorum. It'll be far easier to keep in contact with him that way than through Message spells. He can have his adventure and, in a way, you can still be part of it.

[jasidian]

Actually, after some deliberation... I think I'm going to see if it's acceptable for Vrigka and I to continue living together.

[nobold]

That would require speaking with Austral, I imagine, but if he's alright with it, then by all means, enjoy your time with your new son.

So And you've already named him, I see. Is that orcish? It sounds orcish.